Hey everyone.
Well, as you know, I was supposed to run a 4 miler this morning, but I missed a turn without realizing it and that 4 miler turned into a 3.6 miler.
I mapped my run online last night and I thought I remembered all of it this morning. There were only 4 turns total. What I didn’t expect was to miss a road sign and a “kink” turn in the road. So, I ran as long as I could and then when it joined a major HWY, I turned around and ran back. The problem was, until I passed by that road from the other side, I had no idea that I missed a turn! At first, I actually thought I had gone farther than planned…
So, for about 10 minutes, I was thinking about how good I was feeling at that part of the run and how I expected to feel much worse. A rabbit ran across the road in front of me and I had to walk for a couple of seconds. I thought I was about to die!! I had NO IDEA what was coming out of those bushes!! I had to calm down…
My breathing was perfect, my pace was good… and then I passed by the turn I SHOULD have taken 15 minutes earlier. My mind was racing.
Right after that turn was a hill and as I began my climb, my mind began turning against me. My mind was telling me how I was “so stupid to think that I had gone further than planned. I was dumb to think that I could feel that good late in a run. I was weak. Much weaker than even I anticipated.”
Why does your mind do that? Near the top of the hill, I had to walk. I was discouraged and I had no idea how far (or not far) I had run. All I knew is that my pace and my breathing were similar to what they always were, so I just estimated that I had covered a mile for every 13.5 minutes I had run. I didn’t know if this was right or not, but I knew I wasn’t doing anything fancy. After walking for a minute, I started to run again. My mind continued to beat me down.
After running another 3 minutes, I had to walk again. I was approaching a busy road; that was my excuse, but really, I was just trying to tell my mind to shut up and let me run! That is when my legs started to fail for the first time all week. I thought I was approaching 3 miles by the amount of time that had passed. I crossed over the road and ran the rest of the way. I ran up a street just before my home and I knew it would add 0.3 of a mile to the run.
When I got home, I mapped my actual run to find that I ran 3.6 miles. I’m a little disappointed by that, but it was still my longest run yet and I kept my “normal” slow and steady pace. My knee feels good. My legs are pretty stiff, but they are ok. No blistering.
So, in all, I would say that it was a “good” run, but I don’t like the mental battle. I felt like something in me was trying to sabotage my run, sabotage my goal. What is that about? How do I get rid of it?!
Thanks for reading.
Workout:
- Type: Run
- Date: 08/02/2008
- Time: 07:00:00
- Total Time: 00:48:33.00
- Distance: 3.6 miles
- Average Pace: 13:28.99/mile